Let's make plans about making plans!
Planner, coordinator, peace maker, and motivator. Put that all together in a blender and you get me. I'm a lady who thinks she's got a hold on it but knows she has to let go of all authority in order to walk in obedience.
What I'm trying to say is...I have to stop thinking, planning and such and be obedient.
Let me be completely honest with you right now! It is hard to be obedient and it's hard to be living at the crossing and to be away from everything I have grown comfortable with. The kind of hard I am talking about is the willingness to surrender and die to self, taking every complaint captive and placing it before the Lord to mold into His likeness.
A few things for example...
Living in a facility which seems like land of all creepers. The way they look at you makes you feel very uncomfortable.
Living in a small room with two roommates. I'm talking, the size of my bedroom with three lives crammed into it! Love my roommates, but it gets claustrophobic.
The shower goes from luke warm, to warmer, to blazing...my body is on fire, is that the smell of burning skin HOT, followed by cold :)
No space or time to think.
So those are just a few of some of the character building things I am going through. My sob story, the things I so selfishly bring before the Lord.
It is is times like these where I am blown away by His grace. In my struggle of obedience, He gives me the strength I need to take one step at a time. Each step, revealing more of who He is and how desperately I need Him.
Philippians 1:6 // Being confident in this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
The good work is // His plan for His glory through my life.
How do I get there?
Abandonment of self so I can walk in obedience!
Let's walk this together!!
3.24.2011
3.19.2011
Just a few things I am thankful for today!
1) My cell phone // without it, this transition would be crazy!
2) People interaction/ a social life! I am such a people person! So hard for me to function without it! Have met a few awesome people here, and I am more than thankful! I have been praying that the Lord would provide me with community.
3) Encouragement from everyone at home!! Your notes in the mail, texts, facebook posts and phone calls have made each day sweet :)
4) Joined the rec center today!! They give DRM interns half price, so it's only $24 for 3 months!! It feels good to be able to go to the gym once again! The fact that it's it the ghetto makes it even better as well! Lots of people watching glory!
5) An ice scraper that the maintenance man gave me!! Can't get to work without it!!
1) My cell phone // without it, this transition would be crazy!
2) People interaction/ a social life! I am such a people person! So hard for me to function without it! Have met a few awesome people here, and I am more than thankful! I have been praying that the Lord would provide me with community.
3) Encouragement from everyone at home!! Your notes in the mail, texts, facebook posts and phone calls have made each day sweet :)
4) Joined the rec center today!! They give DRM interns half price, so it's only $24 for 3 months!! It feels good to be able to go to the gym once again! The fact that it's it the ghetto makes it even better as well! Lots of people watching glory!
5) An ice scraper that the maintenance man gave me!! Can't get to work without it!!
3.15.2011
The first time I have made it to a computer since I left home and the first chance I have gotten to put words to what has been going on for the past couple of weeks!
Well, the road trip here was so much fun! So thankful Liv was able to come with me! We got to stop and hang with some good friends in Dallas as well and had such a good time! We also got to spend a few days with my grandparents in Colorado Springs!
Let me start with some basics of Colorado glory.
1) Altitude // We're high up there and it's hard to adjust to! The only description I can put to help you understand is to put yourself in the shoes of one who has asthma and can't make it through their daily activities without an inhaler. Yep! That's how it feels! Delightful? YES! :)
2) It's dry here // I don't go anywhere without lotion, chapstick and water. Like my skin wasn't already dry enough!! Granny hand to the 100th power!
3) I just might be the only chick in this darn state that doesn't own an outback car or have a roof rack! Chicks are serious about their mountain woman status, yikes! I would even go as far to say that many of them don't shave their legs and wear chacos!
4) Tumbleweed really exist outside the movies. I hit them all the time.
5) Cowboys are everywhere.
6) The 2 hour time difference from home is frustrating when trying to talk with family and friends! I have woken way too many people up so far :/
I could probably come up with 50 things off the top of my head, but I'll save it for later!
Denver Rescue Mission
Moved in on Saturday
I made it here in the afternoon and met my two roommates, Maria and Sarah. They are sweet! Things were all good until the reality of me living in this transitional living facility that's not in the safest area of town and not knowing a soul hit me. I haven't felt that sick to my stomach in a long time, stripped of all comfort. I spent hours pleading with God on why He brought me here? He then reminded me
The safest and most fulfilling place I will ever be is where He has called me.
I know that living here will bear much fruit in my walk with the Lord. Less time to focus on my own needs and more time to serve the Lord and serve others!
Started my internship at the Champa House on Monday!
What a sweet day that was!! I immediately felt at home meeting the staff and the women and their children! All my questioning of why the Lord brought me here was answered!
To just serve and to learn.
Some of my responsibilities for this internship include / Cooking dinner for the women, leading a weekly devotion, figuring out a class I would like to teach, assisting in LEC (life skills classes), GED math tutoring, education with the children, administrative office work and such!
Although I'm homesick, I'm very excited for this next 6 months! A time of refining and learning! Here we go! I will go into more detail soon and put up some pictures!
Last note! I really have something that has been heavy on my heart to share! Through this transition the Lord has really taught me how important it is to have a light hold on the things in my life! He gives and takes away, and I have to be ready and available to respond to His calling at any moment. I now realize that I have invested so much time, energy and money into making a place a home. This isn't my home. I need to spend more time investing in things with eternal worth!! My home is at the feet of my maker in eternity. The sweetest place for me! I want to live with that on my heart at all times!
Please continue to pray for me! I need strength and I need encouragement and ultimately I need a teachable heart!
Well, the road trip here was so much fun! So thankful Liv was able to come with me! We got to stop and hang with some good friends in Dallas as well and had such a good time! We also got to spend a few days with my grandparents in Colorado Springs!
Let me start with some basics of Colorado glory.
1) Altitude // We're high up there and it's hard to adjust to! The only description I can put to help you understand is to put yourself in the shoes of one who has asthma and can't make it through their daily activities without an inhaler. Yep! That's how it feels! Delightful? YES! :)
2) It's dry here // I don't go anywhere without lotion, chapstick and water. Like my skin wasn't already dry enough!! Granny hand to the 100th power!
3) I just might be the only chick in this darn state that doesn't own an outback car or have a roof rack! Chicks are serious about their mountain woman status, yikes! I would even go as far to say that many of them don't shave their legs and wear chacos!
4) Tumbleweed really exist outside the movies. I hit them all the time.
5) Cowboys are everywhere.
6) The 2 hour time difference from home is frustrating when trying to talk with family and friends! I have woken way too many people up so far :/
I could probably come up with 50 things off the top of my head, but I'll save it for later!
Denver Rescue Mission
Moved in on Saturday
I made it here in the afternoon and met my two roommates, Maria and Sarah. They are sweet! Things were all good until the reality of me living in this transitional living facility that's not in the safest area of town and not knowing a soul hit me. I haven't felt that sick to my stomach in a long time, stripped of all comfort. I spent hours pleading with God on why He brought me here? He then reminded me
The safest and most fulfilling place I will ever be is where He has called me.
I know that living here will bear much fruit in my walk with the Lord. Less time to focus on my own needs and more time to serve the Lord and serve others!
Started my internship at the Champa House on Monday!
What a sweet day that was!! I immediately felt at home meeting the staff and the women and their children! All my questioning of why the Lord brought me here was answered!
To just serve and to learn.
Some of my responsibilities for this internship include / Cooking dinner for the women, leading a weekly devotion, figuring out a class I would like to teach, assisting in LEC (life skills classes), GED math tutoring, education with the children, administrative office work and such!
Although I'm homesick, I'm very excited for this next 6 months! A time of refining and learning! Here we go! I will go into more detail soon and put up some pictures!
Last note! I really have something that has been heavy on my heart to share! Through this transition the Lord has really taught me how important it is to have a light hold on the things in my life! He gives and takes away, and I have to be ready and available to respond to His calling at any moment. I now realize that I have invested so much time, energy and money into making a place a home. This isn't my home. I need to spend more time investing in things with eternal worth!! My home is at the feet of my maker in eternity. The sweetest place for me! I want to live with that on my heart at all times!
Please continue to pray for me! I need strength and I need encouragement and ultimately I need a teachable heart!
2.28.2011
3 full days left of being home. The Lord continues to pave this path I am walking on. I am constantly surprised, prepared and not alone for each step He calls me to make!
This has, by far been such an exciting walk and adventure! The downside is too many see ya laters each day! NO BUENO! Why can't we have one big party to get it over with! Haven't cried once yet...teared up a bit reading letters but that's pretty much it! A clear sign that the Lord is preparing me! I hate goodbyes and am super emotional when it comes to them!
One of the coolest things has been the opportunity to share my story and this walk with people that don't know Jesus!! Literally each day He has placed someone in my life to share!! Another reminder to me that this whole opportunity has nothing to do with me! I'm just here to serve the Lord and be obedient! This excites me more than anything!! He has given me no control!!
I also have so many cool stories about the way the Lord is providing financially, but I will send that update in a few days!!!
This has, by far been such an exciting walk and adventure! The downside is too many see ya laters each day! NO BUENO! Why can't we have one big party to get it over with! Haven't cried once yet...teared up a bit reading letters but that's pretty much it! A clear sign that the Lord is preparing me! I hate goodbyes and am super emotional when it comes to them!
One of the coolest things has been the opportunity to share my story and this walk with people that don't know Jesus!! Literally each day He has placed someone in my life to share!! Another reminder to me that this whole opportunity has nothing to do with me! I'm just here to serve the Lord and be obedient! This excites me more than anything!! He has given me no control!!
I also have so many cool stories about the way the Lord is providing financially, but I will send that update in a few days!!!
2.24.2011
Last day in the office!
Weird that I won't spend my life transporting info on napkins into spreadsheets, won't get looks at the store for buying random objects or 15 gallons of OJ and 100 pounds of pancake mix and won't be comforting middle school parents through letting their child leave home for camp!
What have I learned?
Boomerangs, hula hoops and marbles are a seasonal item! How do I know? Searching the 239 for them when they're not in season for a Wednesday night game!
Ministry is hard! Persecution and attack accompany it. Clinging to the Lord, remembering who you're really serving, perseverance, having honest and hard conversations, prayer, and accountability get you through.
It has been worth every minute.
Thankful that the Lord has molded me during this time!
Excited for this next journey in my life, but will miss the students and leaders terribly!
Proverbs 16:9
2.21.2011
10 first thoughts today!
1) I can't breathe through my nose.
2) It's my last week of work.
3) Training Debbie this week and she is doing an incredible job. :)
4) All my stuff from my office fits in to a small box just like the movies!!
5) I only have 10% of my funds in and I leave in two weeks. Not sweating it. The Lord knows my needs more than I do! :)
6) Had the sweetest weekend hangin with good friends :) so blessed! Lots of see ya laters happening!
7) Praying for an exposed heart today. I don't want anything to keep me or distract me from knowing Jesus.
8) I wish I could breathe through my nose. I'm feeling like a heavy mouth breather.
9) Someone put Justin Bieber in my office and it's nice to have some company!
10) I need coffee!
2) It's my last week of work.
3) Training Debbie this week and she is doing an incredible job. :)
4) All my stuff from my office fits in to a small box just like the movies!!
5) I only have 10% of my funds in and I leave in two weeks. Not sweating it. The Lord knows my needs more than I do! :)
6) Had the sweetest weekend hangin with good friends :) so blessed! Lots of see ya laters happening!
7) Praying for an exposed heart today. I don't want anything to keep me or distract me from knowing Jesus.
8) I wish I could breathe through my nose. I'm feeling like a heavy mouth breather.
9) Someone put Justin Bieber in my office and it's nice to have some company!
10) I need coffee!
2.14.2011
2.11.2011
I am a lover of many things.
I love to be busy
love to be around people
love to laugh
love an adventure
love coffee
love music
love to read
love to be outside
love road trips
love to write
love to be creative
love to decorate/ design and so on.
The past week I have gotten so caught up in the things I enjoy and the desire to be constantly entertained.
I then realized that I can be entertained all day long and still not be satisfied.
I spend too much time pouring my heart and time into the things I love rather than the one I love. So today, my desire and prayer is that the Lord would teach me and mold me in this area of my life! I want to be motivated to do things because of my love for Him instead the the things I simply love!
He is holy-worthy of my all, my attention and my soul's affection.
I love to be busy
love to be around people
love to laugh
love an adventure
love coffee
love music
love to read
love to be outside
love road trips
love to write
love to be creative
love to decorate/ design and so on.
The past week I have gotten so caught up in the things I enjoy and the desire to be constantly entertained.
I then realized that I can be entertained all day long and still not be satisfied.
I spend too much time pouring my heart and time into the things I love rather than the one I love. So today, my desire and prayer is that the Lord would teach me and mold me in this area of my life! I want to be motivated to do things because of my love for Him instead the the things I simply love!
He is holy-worthy of my all, my attention and my soul's affection.
2.09.2011
What Kind of Tweeter are you?
I like to put people in categories.. Figure them out by their behavior and habits. Weird, I know! This kind of stuff keeps me way too amused! Maybe I'm not the only one! Just my thoughts on some of the people I follow :) ....
Attention Tweeter- Does everyone of your tweets translate into notice me? Are you a name dropper? Do you use your twitter as free self promotion / PR? If so, you are an official Attention Tweeter. Congratulations, I wish you many replies, retweets, and follows...May they give you the boost of confidence you need to carry on and go places!
Siamese Twin Tweeter- A Siamese Twin Tweeter gives you no choice but to know every detail of their life and then some without you asking for it! Pretty much you feel like you are unfortunately attached at the forehead. Example: woke up at 6:15, dove into God's word with a splash while drinking a cup of coffee. Then went to run some errands. Took a quick nap and now I'm going to weed the garden... you get where I'm going with this?? :)
The P.S Tweeter- We all follow a P.S Tweeter and I can sometimes be one as well. Every tweet translates into a side note..Not too interesting and of not much importance...just there.
Obsessive Tweeter- The Obsessive Tweeter a) has no friends b) needs to get their words in for the day c) therefore, they use twitter as an outlet d) they need a BFF.
Anger Outlet Tweeter- Raise your hand if your first reaction of frustration is a tweet! I crack up when a friend uses twitter as an outlet for their frustration rather then actually talking to who their frustrated with! Especially when you can take a good guess at who it is!! I'm tempted too often to retweet with the name of the person I think they're upset with!
Presidential Address Tweeter- Do you plan out your tweets days in advance? Prepare them as if you're addressing the nations with much importance? You could be a Presidential Tweeter! Although I don't quite understand your ways, I appreciate them. Keep on keeping on. Maybe we'll quote or publish your tweets one day you smarty pants!!
Creeper / Tweeter= Creeter // Don't be that guy that reads everyone of the ladies tweets and quotes stuff back to them like it was their Idea... Example: Girl's tweet: Such a beautiful day on the beach, I will live here one day! Guy brings up in convo later that day.. "Such a beautiful day today. Sure wish I lived at the beach." WEIRDY!!! This has happened to my friends and I way too many times! Don't be that guy!! :)
Attention Tweeter- Does everyone of your tweets translate into notice me? Are you a name dropper? Do you use your twitter as free self promotion / PR? If so, you are an official Attention Tweeter. Congratulations, I wish you many replies, retweets, and follows...May they give you the boost of confidence you need to carry on and go places!
Siamese Twin Tweeter- A Siamese Twin Tweeter gives you no choice but to know every detail of their life and then some without you asking for it! Pretty much you feel like you are unfortunately attached at the forehead. Example: woke up at 6:15, dove into God's word with a splash while drinking a cup of coffee. Then went to run some errands. Took a quick nap and now I'm going to weed the garden... you get where I'm going with this?? :)
The P.S Tweeter- We all follow a P.S Tweeter and I can sometimes be one as well. Every tweet translates into a side note..Not too interesting and of not much importance...just there.
Obsessive Tweeter- The Obsessive Tweeter a) has no friends b) needs to get their words in for the day c) therefore, they use twitter as an outlet d) they need a BFF.
Anger Outlet Tweeter- Raise your hand if your first reaction of frustration is a tweet! I crack up when a friend uses twitter as an outlet for their frustration rather then actually talking to who their frustrated with! Especially when you can take a good guess at who it is!! I'm tempted too often to retweet with the name of the person I think they're upset with!
Presidential Address Tweeter- Do you plan out your tweets days in advance? Prepare them as if you're addressing the nations with much importance? You could be a Presidential Tweeter! Although I don't quite understand your ways, I appreciate them. Keep on keeping on. Maybe we'll quote or publish your tweets one day you smarty pants!!
Creeper / Tweeter= Creeter // Don't be that guy that reads everyone of the ladies tweets and quotes stuff back to them like it was their Idea... Example: Girl's tweet: Such a beautiful day on the beach, I will live here one day! Guy brings up in convo later that day.. "Such a beautiful day today. Sure wish I lived at the beach." WEIRDY!!! This has happened to my friends and I way too many times! Don't be that guy!! :)
2.02.2011
Anchored in Love
This is my soul's song today. What sweet words for a beautiful Saviour!
i've found a sweet haven of sunshine at last,
and Jesus abiding above,
His dear arms around me are lovingly cast
and sweetly He tells His love
the tempest is o'er
i'm safe evermore
what gladness what rapture is mine
the danger is past
i'm anchored at last
i'm anchored in Love divine
He saw me endangered and lovingly came
to quiet my storm-beaten soul
sweet words He has spoken and bless His dear name
the billows no longer roll
His love shall control me through life and in death
completely I'll trust to the end
i'll praise Him forever and with my last breath
i'll sing of my soul's Best Friend
i'm anchored in Love divine
Watch it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xb7n8CZhqOI
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